I haven't been sleeping much. I'm just so tired. Today as I was starting to actually get into a deep sleep my dog started barking and woke me up. I was up for the day at that point. Tomorrow I have my postpartum appointment, I doubt I'll be doing much sleeping tonight just thinking about that.
The exhaustion today is weighing on me. I didn't work out, I showered late, I did a whole lot of nothing for most of the day. Since I'm too tired to really organize my thoughts enough to write anything good, I want to post a poem I read recently on a loss board. It's really beautiful and it made me cry.
Nobody knew you
Nobody knew you
” Sorry about the miscarriage dear, but you couldn’t have been very far along.”
…existed.
Nobody knew you
” It’s not as though you lost an actual person.”
…were real
Nobody knew you
” Well it probably wasn’t a viable fetus.
It’s all for the best.”
…were perfect.
Nobody knew you
” You can always have another!”
…were unique.
Nobody knew you
” You already have a beautiful child. Be happy!”
…were loved for yourself.
Nobody knew you
…but us.
And we will always remember
…You.
By Jan Cosby
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that's a beautiful poem.
ReplyDeleteI have never posted anything before. I just want you to know that I've read your blog since the beginning and there is not a day that goes by that I don't think of you and Alexandra. I will never forget that day on babycenter or you and her. I have never known what to say and don't want to say the wrong thing. My son would be 5 this year. It always hurts the same, you just find different ways to cope and keep going.
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